99% no luck whatsoever

Today I went for jury duty. There were only 2 days left that I was on call, and of course I get called. It is a civil trial, I will not post anything about it. All I will say is I made it to the random pool of 21 jurors and was lucky enough to NOT get called. That's about the only good thing that has happened to me in the month of August. I have made up my mind on one thing, and hopefully this will carry me to good fortune in the future. I'd rather stand alone on my own two feet than be with anyone who feels it's up to them to hold me up. I've made a decision that until further notice, I will be staying in Arkansas, unless a wonderful job opportunity opens up. If it does, and the move makes sense, I will go. However, I will not allow any outside circumstance affect my decisions any longer. It's up to me and only me. I'm giving up on any happiness that may have been pointed in my direction, as it's pointless. Things love to be dangled in front of me to see if I'll bite. Well, guess what. I wiggled my way off the hook and I know not to look back for it again. As I said in my previous post, if something is meant to be it will be. However, I'm not looking for it any more. Fate will decide my future, but I'll be damned if I let it try to control me any longer!

Haven't forgotten...

Some may think that because of my recent "attitude change" that I've forgotten things. It's quite the opposite actually. I remember much more than people think. However, I have to do what's right for me. I've been down the road before and ran into a couple of guardrails. Knocked me off track, cost me a job and eventually a home. Not doing that again! What needs to be done will be done, that's for me and nobody else. If other things happen, well that's just God telling me I'm happy and satisfied with myself, and now can make another happy. If not, then I know where the next road leads, and I'll travel it alone until such time He tells me otherwise. To those of you who understand that, more power to you. For those of you who don't, there could be one of two reasons: 1 - It doesn't apply to you 2 - It's none of your business TTFN~!

Sorry it's been awhile

So much shit going on it's hard to know where to start... Let's just give a summary, shall we?? Had an opportunity to TRY to work in CT, but decided against it. Can't afford it and it's not home! Wife and I will be divorcing, just working out the financials. Thought about where I would like to go, and right now the decision is to stay in Arkansas for the foreseeable future. I am lucky to have a good job with a nice salary. As for some random thoughts... If the mommy and daddy are together to take care of the baby, you step away from it If it's the same BS, you do whatever you can to get away from it If you are not happy with yourself and your life, how are others going to be happy for you and with you Dealing a poker tournament on Saturday, can't wait! TTFN~!