Woohoo! It's here. A legitimate 3-day weekend! Well, kinda. I will still be online for work, but I will not have to STAY online all day. Also, why the hell do they call it "Labor" day if nobody works? Yeah, yeah, it's an old joke, but I've yet to hear an answer. Frankly, dammit, I want one!!
Anyway, I am working from home today. Usually it's Thursday's but I took a 1/2 day for myself yesterday and today my son had a dental appointment. So instead of starting home, then having to shut it all down, pack it up, only to take him to school then trekking into the office to unpack, only to repack again at the end of the day, I asked my supervisor (and she graciously said yes) to let me work from home today. So I was online at 7, worked until 8, then got back at 10 and right back to work. Will be here all day, hopefully will be a fairly quiet day. It's actually been fairly quiet all week, which is scary. Waiting for the explosion.
Played poker Wednesday night. Had a great start. Flopped quad J's, managed to suck almost 2 grand out of an opponent. Then caught trips from a small blind, which I played without looking at my cards until the turn. Unfortunately, those were the only highlights. I got moved to another table, went all in, lost and left. Hopefully going this weekend again. Then I'll probably be done until next year.
Have a safe and wonderful holiday weekend everyone!
Friday, September 3, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Random post...
Are you a wrestling fan? I am. I follow one particular site that has all kinds of news and stories about the wrestling business and the wrestlers. It's kind of like an internet tabloid, except they have bloggers that also give their own opinions of things, ideas they have for "creative" and the like. It's really a good read. I enjoy it.
Other than that, I guess there isn't much to talk about. I don't even know why I am blogging, except I have random thoughts in my head I need to put somewhere I guess. I am, for starters, tired of stupidity. You know the saying "if everything around you is right and you are wrong, then it's probably you" or something to that effect. Well, I've come to the conclusion that it IS everybody else. Everyone thinks that because I am no longer a "social butterfly" at work, and I keep mostly to myself on personal issues, that there is something wrong with me. Nobody bothers to ask. To hell with them.
I am still bumming about not going to New York this year. I'll get over it though. I have my memories, and will visit them often over the next few months to keep myself from going totally nuts. Next year, like I said in a past post, will be a better time to go. What things am I looking to see? Well, for starters the ocean. I want to walk on the beach and the boardwalk, stay for awhile. Sit in the sand and listen to the waves crashing to the shore, the birds flying above. I also want to go through the old neighborhood where I grew up. I want to see what became of the house I lived in for more than half my life. I also want to drive by the park that was on the other side of town but I never went to because I didn't KNOW there was the other side of town until I started driving, then I hardly went there. I also want to visit an OTB (not On The Border, it's Off Track Betting). I had some good times there talking with guys about horses. One strange place I want to go is to a diner. I haven't had diner food in quite awhile.
People? Not particularly. This trip is more about the place. I want to go fishing (have to find out what is in season when I go). In case you haven't figured it out, I am drying out, and need to get wet again. Did you know there is a huge lake here, and I've never been to it. Seven years, don't go. Not even sure where it is. On Long Island it was easy to find water. Go 5 miles north or south, you find water. Go 6 miles north or south, you drown. Easy!
Finally decided on a title for the post. Yes, just typed it in. What?! Got a problem with it? I could have named it "fuck off" but that would defeat the purpose, because I would read back on this later, see that and think I should just stop reading altogether. I won't remember why I titled it the way I did. I type this to remind myself of the past. Some of which I should be forgetting.
Have to go to my son's school tonight for a "class meeting". Don't I seem excited? The class is called "Forensics" but it has to do with presentation and debate. That is not the definition I know for Forensics, but why not. If it's got to do with debate, my son can (maybe) learn from me. If not, his problem. He isn't the brightest bulb on the Christmas tree to begin with.
It's funny. I follow other blogs, and the parents there are so fucking funny. "Oh, my child is SO GREAT, they do THIS and THAT!" Have you stopped and looked at your child? If you didn't drag them to this and that, they would have nothing to do, because frankly they look too stupid to know what they want. And with parents like what they have, they are in alot of fucking trouble!
Well, that's about it. Not enough? Oh well, I'll save it for the next one.
Other than that, I guess there isn't much to talk about. I don't even know why I am blogging, except I have random thoughts in my head I need to put somewhere I guess. I am, for starters, tired of stupidity. You know the saying "if everything around you is right and you are wrong, then it's probably you" or something to that effect. Well, I've come to the conclusion that it IS everybody else. Everyone thinks that because I am no longer a "social butterfly" at work, and I keep mostly to myself on personal issues, that there is something wrong with me. Nobody bothers to ask. To hell with them.
I am still bumming about not going to New York this year. I'll get over it though. I have my memories, and will visit them often over the next few months to keep myself from going totally nuts. Next year, like I said in a past post, will be a better time to go. What things am I looking to see? Well, for starters the ocean. I want to walk on the beach and the boardwalk, stay for awhile. Sit in the sand and listen to the waves crashing to the shore, the birds flying above. I also want to go through the old neighborhood where I grew up. I want to see what became of the house I lived in for more than half my life. I also want to drive by the park that was on the other side of town but I never went to because I didn't KNOW there was the other side of town until I started driving, then I hardly went there. I also want to visit an OTB (not On The Border, it's Off Track Betting). I had some good times there talking with guys about horses. One strange place I want to go is to a diner. I haven't had diner food in quite awhile.
People? Not particularly. This trip is more about the place. I want to go fishing (have to find out what is in season when I go). In case you haven't figured it out, I am drying out, and need to get wet again. Did you know there is a huge lake here, and I've never been to it. Seven years, don't go. Not even sure where it is. On Long Island it was easy to find water. Go 5 miles north or south, you find water. Go 6 miles north or south, you drown. Easy!
Finally decided on a title for the post. Yes, just typed it in. What?! Got a problem with it? I could have named it "fuck off" but that would defeat the purpose, because I would read back on this later, see that and think I should just stop reading altogether. I won't remember why I titled it the way I did. I type this to remind myself of the past. Some of which I should be forgetting.
Have to go to my son's school tonight for a "class meeting". Don't I seem excited? The class is called "Forensics" but it has to do with presentation and debate. That is not the definition I know for Forensics, but why not. If it's got to do with debate, my son can (maybe) learn from me. If not, his problem. He isn't the brightest bulb on the Christmas tree to begin with.
It's funny. I follow other blogs, and the parents there are so fucking funny. "Oh, my child is SO GREAT, they do THIS and THAT!" Have you stopped and looked at your child? If you didn't drag them to this and that, they would have nothing to do, because frankly they look too stupid to know what they want. And with parents like what they have, they are in alot of fucking trouble!
Well, that's about it. Not enough? Oh well, I'll save it for the next one.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Trip postponed...
Yes, my trip to New York is on hiatus. After getting a quote on a package including flight, rental car and hotel (for 3 and 4 nights), and looking online to price rental cars for a 9 day road trip, figuring in gas prices and the like, I found that this trip cannot currently be afforded. Not that close to Christmas. A smart move on my part. The one holiday I can tolerate is Christmas, and I do not want to be in a situation where I cannot buy a gift or choose not to pay a few bills. So, I am planning for a trip in April or May 2011. By then I will be through the holidays and I can do my budget for 2011 and see what I can save each month. Plus, I hope there is a bonus at work which will help subsidize the trip.
Now all I have to do is survive the next 7 months with not being able to get to the ocean.
Now all I have to do is survive the next 7 months with not being able to get to the ocean.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Friends...
Two more months to New York. Or Las Vegas (probably not going there). Or Colorado. Or Nebraska. Basically I want to go far, far away, to a place I've never been. Colorado in November probably not the best idea. I heard they get snow early. Nebraska, not sure what they get and when. I know tornado season should be done by then. New York still seems like the best choice. Get some pizza, maybe go to a hockey game. Definitely go to the ocean. Basically, these plans are what is keeping me going.
Have also been thinking about "friends" lately. I've mentioned this before. People in general make me laugh. They say "we're friends!". Yeah...OK. Let's think about this. Will you invite me to your home for dinner or to hang out? Will you call me and say "hey, so-and-so and I are going to hang out after work, wanna come?" Nope. And you know what? I won't call you either. When I see you, I will be as cordial as I believe you deserve from me.
As I stated above, I am planning to go to NY in a couple of months. I think I may have found someone to visit while I am there. A woman I knew through high school (and a short time beyond) is still there. She and I lost touch due to some of her own personal demons she was dealing with. My understanding is she is past them now, and trying to make amends with those she hurt during that period. I let her know I may be going up to NY, will see what happens. At least baseball season will be almost done by then ... she's a NY Yankees fan! BOO! LMAO!!
Have also been thinking about "friends" lately. I've mentioned this before. People in general make me laugh. They say "we're friends!". Yeah...OK. Let's think about this. Will you invite me to your home for dinner or to hang out? Will you call me and say "hey, so-and-so and I are going to hang out after work, wanna come?" Nope. And you know what? I won't call you either. When I see you, I will be as cordial as I believe you deserve from me.
As I stated above, I am planning to go to NY in a couple of months. I think I may have found someone to visit while I am there. A woman I knew through high school (and a short time beyond) is still there. She and I lost touch due to some of her own personal demons she was dealing with. My understanding is she is past them now, and trying to make amends with those she hurt during that period. I let her know I may be going up to NY, will see what happens. At least baseball season will be almost done by then ... she's a NY Yankees fan! BOO! LMAO!!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
A title huh??
Not very creative minded this afternoon. Actually just grateful that the sunburn I obtained on Saturday is healing and I'm in quite a bit less pain than I was Sunday and yesterday.
Saturday we went to a water park in Branson MO. It was WONDERFUL! The temperature was about 84 degrees, there was some cloud cover, a small breeze. The water temperature was beyond perfect. Well, after being there about 3 hours, someone decided they had enough of the clouds, and they all went away. Out comes the sun. In just 6 minutes (yes, SIX!) I found a whole new respect for bacon, because damn if I did not feel like a strip in a frying pan. Yeah, yeah, some tell me that even with the cloud cover I would still have been burnt. Yes, I know! These are the jackasses that don't understand a story, they HAVE to be right all the fucking time! As I was saying, in just 6 minutes, I went from a "decently not totally white as a sheet" color to RED! I thought about sunscreen, and decided against it. How much worse could it have gotten? Four hours later, when we left, it was only worse on my feet. The rest of me was fried a long time earlier.
Still planning my trip. HOWEVER, ran into a "snafu" as one my direct co-workers is due to have a baby that week. She will naturally be out of the office before that time, and with me out? I am hoping that my bosses find another cover for the business. Because I'll be damned if I'm missing my vacation!
Saturday we went to a water park in Branson MO. It was WONDERFUL! The temperature was about 84 degrees, there was some cloud cover, a small breeze. The water temperature was beyond perfect. Well, after being there about 3 hours, someone decided they had enough of the clouds, and they all went away. Out comes the sun. In just 6 minutes (yes, SIX!) I found a whole new respect for bacon, because damn if I did not feel like a strip in a frying pan. Yeah, yeah, some tell me that even with the cloud cover I would still have been burnt. Yes, I know! These are the jackasses that don't understand a story, they HAVE to be right all the fucking time! As I was saying, in just 6 minutes, I went from a "decently not totally white as a sheet" color to RED! I thought about sunscreen, and decided against it. How much worse could it have gotten? Four hours later, when we left, it was only worse on my feet. The rest of me was fried a long time earlier.
Still planning my trip. HOWEVER, ran into a "snafu" as one my direct co-workers is due to have a baby that week. She will naturally be out of the office before that time, and with me out? I am hoping that my bosses find another cover for the business. Because I'll be damned if I'm missing my vacation!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Crazy...
Over the past few weeks, some would say I've made some "unwise" decisions. I have distanced my personal life from my work life, meaning I have "not been myself" at work. What's the point? Do you ever see anyone come by my desk to have a conversation, see how I'm doing, how my family is? Nope. I'm always the one getting up, going to others. It honestly takes a lot of time out of my work day. Even my supervisor, who when I go into her office for a 5 minute meeting turns into an hour, has been kept to 5 minutes. At work I'm all business. I work with mostly people that are young enough to be my children (had I been sexually active at 14, but still). They are single, I am married. I don't go out on weekends drinking and dancing. There is no commonality there. Crazy? Yeah, some would call it that. I call it getting done what is supposed to get done.
However....
This is nothing compared to what I'm planning for the start of November. ROAD TRIP!! Yes, folks, I have vacation that week, and my plan is to rent a car and go home. I am going to Long Island for a few days. Leaving on the Saturday, getting there on Monday, then leaving on Thursday and heading back to Arkansas. Already priced hotels, and found a decent deal for 3 nights. Have to look into rental cars next. Maybe I'll contact a travel agent, see if he can put some kind of package together for me to make it a bit less expensive. Going to see what deals I get on my own first, so I can compare. But, YEP, my plan is to head home.
Well, either there or Las Vegas. Haven't truly decided yet. The drive each way is about the same, and I know hotels in LV are much cheaper, but all that gambling? And me being by myself?? Long Island seems the smarter choice. Less chance of me spending too much money, I get to be back by the ocean (which I miss terribly), and I get to see the old neighborhood. I may also take a ride into Brooklyn, look for a bakery that I loved as a kid that was near my grandma's house. Hopefully I'll have GPS in the car so it can tell me where to go, because I'll be damned if I remember.
Well, that's it and that's that. One crazy post, huh??
However....
This is nothing compared to what I'm planning for the start of November. ROAD TRIP!! Yes, folks, I have vacation that week, and my plan is to rent a car and go home. I am going to Long Island for a few days. Leaving on the Saturday, getting there on Monday, then leaving on Thursday and heading back to Arkansas. Already priced hotels, and found a decent deal for 3 nights. Have to look into rental cars next. Maybe I'll contact a travel agent, see if he can put some kind of package together for me to make it a bit less expensive. Going to see what deals I get on my own first, so I can compare. But, YEP, my plan is to head home.
Well, either there or Las Vegas. Haven't truly decided yet. The drive each way is about the same, and I know hotels in LV are much cheaper, but all that gambling? And me being by myself?? Long Island seems the smarter choice. Less chance of me spending too much money, I get to be back by the ocean (which I miss terribly), and I get to see the old neighborhood. I may also take a ride into Brooklyn, look for a bakery that I loved as a kid that was near my grandma's house. Hopefully I'll have GPS in the car so it can tell me where to go, because I'll be damned if I remember.
Well, that's it and that's that. One crazy post, huh??
Friday, August 13, 2010
Happy Friday the 13th...
Wow, one of my favorite days of the year. It doesn't come around again until January 2011, and that's Anthony's birthday. I normally have alot of luck on this day, and always wear all black. Didn't today. White shirt and blue jeans. When the temperature outside is hitting 102 and up, light colored clothing is the way to go.
Right now I'm sitting at work in a very quiet office. There isn't much going on, and majority of the people are gone for the day. I am sitting listening to a CD (won't say which one, don't want you to choke) and thinking. Remembering...
At one point in my life, I can say I had friends. Those that were there for me, in good times and bad. They would pick me up when I was down, or slap some sense into me when I was being stupid. I like to think I was there for them too, the best way that I could. I do not have that in my life anymore. I miss that. I rememember people from my past, the ones that could make me smile and laugh. They would cry with me when I was sad. I remember one young woman I knew...actually I dated her...who was there with me when my mom had her first stroke. I was SO pissed. I reamed 2 doctors right there in the hospital hallway, and I mean reamed (they are still walking funny), and then walked away. Nobody could find me, and at the time that's what I thought I wanted. Well, she found me, and ignored my "go away". She came over, sat next to me, and put her arms around me. Together we just sat there. I was able to cry and get out my frustration, sadness, anger. Everything that was built up. I miss having people in my life like that. Those that will not care if I am in a talkative mood or not. Those that truly know me is that just be fucking NORMAL around me. I come around easy enough.
Just too many demons in my head for me to start anything...
Right now I'm sitting at work in a very quiet office. There isn't much going on, and majority of the people are gone for the day. I am sitting listening to a CD (won't say which one, don't want you to choke) and thinking. Remembering...
At one point in my life, I can say I had friends. Those that were there for me, in good times and bad. They would pick me up when I was down, or slap some sense into me when I was being stupid. I like to think I was there for them too, the best way that I could. I do not have that in my life anymore. I miss that. I rememember people from my past, the ones that could make me smile and laugh. They would cry with me when I was sad. I remember one young woman I knew...actually I dated her...who was there with me when my mom had her first stroke. I was SO pissed. I reamed 2 doctors right there in the hospital hallway, and I mean reamed (they are still walking funny), and then walked away. Nobody could find me, and at the time that's what I thought I wanted. Well, she found me, and ignored my "go away". She came over, sat next to me, and put her arms around me. Together we just sat there. I was able to cry and get out my frustration, sadness, anger. Everything that was built up. I miss having people in my life like that. Those that will not care if I am in a talkative mood or not. Those that truly know me is that just be fucking NORMAL around me. I come around easy enough.
Just too many demons in my head for me to start anything...
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