Hi...

Feels like it's been more than 1 week since my last post. Wound up playing in a charity poker tournament last Friday night and finished 3rd. Picked up some nice prizes, and the money raised went to a good cause. Work has been normally busy which is good for me. Today I could have written my next promotion but really wasn't in the mood, so going to hit the office tomorrow morning and write it. Won't take more than a couple of hours. Not much going on this weekend except FOOTBALL! Love the fall season. Then next week, all the prime time shows are back. Going to wind up burning out my DVR! Hope everyone is having a great week and enjoy your weekend! TTFN~!

Friday the 13th

Usually this is one of my favorite days. While others feel it's a "bad luck" day, I see it as just the opposite. However, this Friday the 13th is the exception. I am in a foul mood, and have been all day. Can't get the stuff I need to do my job. And too many thoughts (and realizations) running through my mind. For starters, I know why my "friend" stopped contacting me. OK, so let me back up a bit. For the past 25 years, I have been viewed as an asshole for my actions. That's fine. It was the proper label. However, I've chnaged. I've proved that. And I was patient. However, someone says something, and instead of being an adult and asking about it, I get ignored. Bad, BAD idea! You see, you have to understand something. I have absolutely nothing to lose. You can say whatever you want about me, feel however you want about me, and THINK you are "ruining my life". However, I'm the one that has plenty of information. What? Your home address. As I said, I have absolutely NOTHING to lose. Everything I've ever had is gone and I'm at a point where I just don't care. Also, you know me well enough that you won't know when it's coming. I tend to plan things out sometimes WAY too much! It could be days, weeks...but neither of you will know what hit you. The other part is I know WHO caused my friend and I to stop communicating. That person is in for one helluva shock too. They think they did good, things are "back to normal". Hahaha! There is another one that will not know what hit them.

Just ranting...

It's amazing how so many people can turn their backs on a person, and basically all at the same time. You ask for things, they ignore it. They are not difficult requests. This is job related AND personal related, in case you are wondering. Job related: people don't do their jobs. Then I get to the office early the next morning to make sure things were done, find out they aren't, and they are on bankers hours! WTF!?!? Personal related: someone tells you they care .. BULLSHIT! Job related issues: well, I have to deal with it and use my follow-up skills to make sure things get corrected timely and without errors, because if things don't go right, I get the blame regardless of the "paper trail" Personal related issues: Fuck you! And thank you for reminding me DTA! (Don't Trust ANYONE!)

99% no luck whatsoever

Today I went for jury duty. There were only 2 days left that I was on call, and of course I get called. It is a civil trial, I will not post anything about it. All I will say is I made it to the random pool of 21 jurors and was lucky enough to NOT get called. That's about the only good thing that has happened to me in the month of August. I have made up my mind on one thing, and hopefully this will carry me to good fortune in the future. I'd rather stand alone on my own two feet than be with anyone who feels it's up to them to hold me up. I've made a decision that until further notice, I will be staying in Arkansas, unless a wonderful job opportunity opens up. If it does, and the move makes sense, I will go. However, I will not allow any outside circumstance affect my decisions any longer. It's up to me and only me. I'm giving up on any happiness that may have been pointed in my direction, as it's pointless. Things love to be dangled in front of me to see if I'll bite. Well, guess what. I wiggled my way off the hook and I know not to look back for it again. As I said in my previous post, if something is meant to be it will be. However, I'm not looking for it any more. Fate will decide my future, but I'll be damned if I let it try to control me any longer!

Haven't forgotten...

Some may think that because of my recent "attitude change" that I've forgotten things. It's quite the opposite actually. I remember much more than people think. However, I have to do what's right for me. I've been down the road before and ran into a couple of guardrails. Knocked me off track, cost me a job and eventually a home. Not doing that again! What needs to be done will be done, that's for me and nobody else. If other things happen, well that's just God telling me I'm happy and satisfied with myself, and now can make another happy. If not, then I know where the next road leads, and I'll travel it alone until such time He tells me otherwise. To those of you who understand that, more power to you. For those of you who don't, there could be one of two reasons: 1 - It doesn't apply to you 2 - It's none of your business TTFN~!

Sorry it's been awhile

So much shit going on it's hard to know where to start... Let's just give a summary, shall we?? Had an opportunity to TRY to work in CT, but decided against it. Can't afford it and it's not home! Wife and I will be divorcing, just working out the financials. Thought about where I would like to go, and right now the decision is to stay in Arkansas for the foreseeable future. I am lucky to have a good job with a nice salary. As for some random thoughts... If the mommy and daddy are together to take care of the baby, you step away from it If it's the same BS, you do whatever you can to get away from it If you are not happy with yourself and your life, how are others going to be happy for you and with you Dealing a poker tournament on Saturday, can't wait! TTFN~!

Ugh...

It's been the week from hell at work. Earlier this week it was discovered that I had "bad numbers" in a specific spreadsheet I've been working with ALL YEAR, which has caused orders to be incorrect. It's been 2 days of hell trying to work with our customer to figure out the best way to handle the inventory. I am no longer involved in this, but I was the one that started it. Shame on many for not catching this MUCH sooner, but mostly shame on me, because it was my error that caused it. I am not even sure where the error came from. All I know is I'm the one who was responsible for making sure the spreadsheet formulas were correct and I did not do that. Needless to say I feel like shit! This is not reflecting well on the new big boss that just came into our office a couple of weeks ago, nor with the team lead who is leaving and has to let the new team lead coming in what I did. So much for looking good to get moved! Hopefully I can get some good recommendations from a couple of co-workers I trust so I can get a job with another company when it's time for me to go. Today I found out that I have five (5) promotions which will all ship at the end of the month. Good luck with that! I have the easy part. Put the orders together, count the number of trucks, report the number of trucks to transportation, then write the orders. The hard part is going to be figuring out if we can ship all of the orders I'm going to write. TTFN!