Concerns...

Please note, I know who currently has access to this blog and who reads it regularly (or at least checks it), who checks it occassionally, and who may glance at it once in a while. Also, please note that I don't care! I've said it before, I'll say it again. It's MY blog! It's MY running diary. If I don't use your name, it doesn't matter what I say, because you have no fucking clue if it's about you or not.

I have no friends, I have co-workers and acquaintances. And there are many of each. So if you think what I'm typing follows your "story" guess what?? There are others, and you are not unique to my life.

If I remember right (most times I don't ... people know this and take WAY too much advantage of it!) I posted about blogging, then just dropping off without warning. Basically stopping publishing and not giving a fuck what anyone thought. Then, I went and did the same thing. I have my reasons for not blogging in a couple of months...

For starters, I am SO fed up at work. I stuck myself between a rock and a hard place by not going to college. I continue to be stuck as I feel I'm too old and not motivated enough to even START college. Therefore, I am stuck at my current job because frankly, even with 5 years of experience in my current role, plus my previous 20 years of experience in customer service, nobody will look at me without college. Add to that, my boss is not adept at knowing what I or my co-workers do. I don't see him learning much either! The mentality is "you learn it, you do it, FAST!" or you are basically worthless. I was thrown into a new position at the start of my busy season, wanting me to take it over basically in 2 weeks, while my partner is planning on being out for 8 weeks on maternity. They want me to try to train 2 others on what I do, learn the new job, and keep up with three categories. I STILL also have to learn how to be a CFR for one of the categories that they decided to stick me with as well. Yet, I have been told I have to "prove myself" because one of my wonderful fucked up co-workers decided to complain about me. So, 4 years of employment PLUS 1 year as a temp means fuck all. It's bullshit, but like I said earlier. I'm stuck! Stuck and fucked!

Currently I am battling a bad sinus infection. Fever, coughing, sneezing and everything. Doc says it's not the flu. Stupid fucking Arkansas weather. Snowed on Monday, 60 degrees 2 days later!

Wife lost her job. Why? She's too fucking stupid to learn. She told me one of the things they told her when releasing her was "she was spoken to about delaying getting to her next room", yet when I ask her "well, were you warned?" She replies "NO!" Fucking stupid! Remind me again why I stick the fuck around? Jail would be a better life than what I'm leading!

Enjoy. And WARNING! WARNING! I may not blog again for awhile. Don't worry. I promise to at least post a blog the moment I'm dead!