99% no luck whatsoever

Today I went for jury duty. There were only 2 days left that I was on call, and of course I get called. It is a civil trial, I will not post anything about it. All I will say is I made it to the random pool of 21 jurors and was lucky enough to NOT get called. That's about the only good thing that has happened to me in the month of August. I have made up my mind on one thing, and hopefully this will carry me to good fortune in the future. I'd rather stand alone on my own two feet than be with anyone who feels it's up to them to hold me up. I've made a decision that until further notice, I will be staying in Arkansas, unless a wonderful job opportunity opens up. If it does, and the move makes sense, I will go. However, I will not allow any outside circumstance affect my decisions any longer. It's up to me and only me. I'm giving up on any happiness that may have been pointed in my direction, as it's pointless. Things love to be dangled in front of me to see if I'll bite. Well, guess what. I wiggled my way off the hook and I know not to look back for it again. As I said in my previous post, if something is meant to be it will be. However, I'm not looking for it any more. Fate will decide my future, but I'll be damned if I let it try to control me any longer!

Haven't forgotten...

Some may think that because of my recent "attitude change" that I've forgotten things. It's quite the opposite actually. I remember much more than people think. However, I have to do what's right for me. I've been down the road before and ran into a couple of guardrails. Knocked me off track, cost me a job and eventually a home. Not doing that again! What needs to be done will be done, that's for me and nobody else. If other things happen, well that's just God telling me I'm happy and satisfied with myself, and now can make another happy. If not, then I know where the next road leads, and I'll travel it alone until such time He tells me otherwise. To those of you who understand that, more power to you. For those of you who don't, there could be one of two reasons: 1 - It doesn't apply to you 2 - It's none of your business TTFN~!

Sorry it's been awhile

So much shit going on it's hard to know where to start... Let's just give a summary, shall we?? Had an opportunity to TRY to work in CT, but decided against it. Can't afford it and it's not home! Wife and I will be divorcing, just working out the financials. Thought about where I would like to go, and right now the decision is to stay in Arkansas for the foreseeable future. I am lucky to have a good job with a nice salary. As for some random thoughts... If the mommy and daddy are together to take care of the baby, you step away from it If it's the same BS, you do whatever you can to get away from it If you are not happy with yourself and your life, how are others going to be happy for you and with you Dealing a poker tournament on Saturday, can't wait! TTFN~!

Ugh...

It's been the week from hell at work. Earlier this week it was discovered that I had "bad numbers" in a specific spreadsheet I've been working with ALL YEAR, which has caused orders to be incorrect. It's been 2 days of hell trying to work with our customer to figure out the best way to handle the inventory. I am no longer involved in this, but I was the one that started it. Shame on many for not catching this MUCH sooner, but mostly shame on me, because it was my error that caused it. I am not even sure where the error came from. All I know is I'm the one who was responsible for making sure the spreadsheet formulas were correct and I did not do that. Needless to say I feel like shit! This is not reflecting well on the new big boss that just came into our office a couple of weeks ago, nor with the team lead who is leaving and has to let the new team lead coming in what I did. So much for looking good to get moved! Hopefully I can get some good recommendations from a couple of co-workers I trust so I can get a job with another company when it's time for me to go. Today I found out that I have five (5) promotions which will all ship at the end of the month. Good luck with that! I have the easy part. Put the orders together, count the number of trucks, report the number of trucks to transportation, then write the orders. The hard part is going to be figuring out if we can ship all of the orders I'm going to write. TTFN!

Long Island

It's Monday night, and I'm in my hotel room. Coffee from 7-11 in hand, watching WWE Raw. Tomorrow going away with a very special person in my life. Can't wait! OK, let's back up a bit. I'm sure that last statement confused some. After 20 years of marriage, I have advised my wife I will be filing for divorce when I return from my vacation. I am tired of all of the bullshit, the lack of emotion. I love the woman, she is the mother of my child, but I am not in love with her, and have not been for a long time. Please note, this decision was made a long time ago. The only reason I stuck around so long was because of my son. Now that he is 19 and basically scared of me because I yell at him when he acts like an asshole or doesn't want to learn, it's time for me to make myself happy. And I cannot be happy continuing to live the way I have been living for the past 20 years. Enough is enough. Meeting an old friend and falling in love with her all over again was something that was not planned. It was an innocent contact to try to get a friend back. No matter what we've been through, whether together or apart, we've always been able to be there for one another in one form or another. We are easy and fast friends, and can talk about anything, past or present. Even the future. And in a few months, hopefully we will be able to start new lives together, and finally be happy (which is something we both rightfully deserve). TTFN

A little over 18 hours...

And I leave for my first real vacation in what feels like forever. I am not bringing my work laptop with me. I am not checking late trucks. I am not worried about promotions. I am going to Long Island to enjoy time home. Will be there 8 nights, which seems like a long time, but isn't if plans work out. Seems to have fallen apart at this point, but I am still hoping for something to work right. The only set plan I have is fishing Sunday (Father's Day) morning. Reservation on the boat already set. There is also night fishing, which I've done once and was not the most enjoyable night of my life. If I go again, I make sure we are not going out on the ocean. Next post from Long Island (some time over the next 9 days) TTFN!

Soon...

But not soon enough. I don't leave for Long Island for another 3 1/2 days (flight out Saturday early afternoon). Then, for the next 8 days, I will know true love and happiness. I can't wait. I am having a very hard time containing my excitement. I want to stand on the rooftop and shout but I can't. Mostly because I'm afraid of heights! That's one reason I'm short. So far my week at work has gone fast, which I didn't expect. I figured it to drag and for all kinds of shit to "blow up" on me. But so far so good. Tomorrow a co-worker comes back from a mini vacation and I will be training him all afternoon to cover my business. In the morning, I have to work with another co-worker on how to write a promotion he's never seen before. Plus I have to make sure my work gets done somewhere in there. Not too worried though. I know I can get it done. My focus has recently been and now always will be on the future. It's time for me to be happy! TTFN