Random crap...

Just finished watching The Biggest Loser on DVR. I rarely ever watch anything live, except for sports. I cannot deal with commercials very well. Anyway, tonight's show was the "go home" show before the live finale next week. You get to see the 20-week journey for the contestants that have made it to the end. This season there are 2 sisters that made the final three. One of them, Hannah, is so beautiful. Don't get me wrong, they both are. But Hannah has something about her. I noticed it even at the start of the season. I can only hope that, while she may never find the sports figure she was in college, she stays fit and healthy, which she seems to be at her happiest. She is also going to turn LOTS more heads!

This is something I've only done to two people in my entire life ... well, at least in a good way. First was when I was 16 and met a young woman at a teen group. She saw me come in, and I don't know if she knows it but I caught the way she stared at me when I entered the room. The look stayed until she and I shared our first kiss that night. It stayed on up until the day she went to Florida. Unfortunately it was gone when she came back to New York for a visit.

The only other time was my ex-fiancee (sp? who the hell cares). I think I told you the story before, and don't feel like looking back. The look was there back when we first got together, it was there when we got back together for a short time a few years ago (before we moved to Arkansas). I can't say what the reaction would be if we saw each other one more time.

I've been thinking about this lately, how I am not one to turn heads for a good reason. I've turned plenty of heads that had a look of "holy fucking shit, what the hell is that?!?" or "how the fuck does someone let themselves go there?!?"

I am 41-years old, approximately 160 lbs (the heaviest I have ever been!), and quit smoking 12 weeks ago. The new thought that has been crossing my mind has been joining a gym. Too old to want to start something new, too young to die.