Stay off the curb...

Took summer hours from work today. Then picked up Anthony and took him to see if he could pass the test for his driver's learning permit. He passed. Hence "Stay off the curb..." at the top! DUH! Then we went to see Transformers 3. OK, first of all, I do not understand why Megan Fox chose not to participate in the third installment. Frankly I thought she played a very good role in the first two movies. Second of all, I do not understand WHO or WHY someone thought that Rosie Huntington-Whiteley was the proper choice to replace her. She SUCKED in this movie! The movie was not in my top 2 of the trilogy.

Coming up on a "4-day weekend". Yeah, right! Walmart is open on Tuesday, which means I will be working on Tuesday. Will have to take Anthony to the dentist in the morning, but then the rest of the day will be spent checking work emails. Ah well. Soon I will have a REAL 4-day weekend.

Almost posted this, but something crossed my mind. I have followed the blogs of others, and actually one person's blog is one reason I started my own. Suddenly, this person stopped blogging. The excuse? She got hooked into Facebook. OK, here's a small tip for you. NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOUR LIFE AND YOUR FAMILY WHICH IS NOT THE BEST LOOKING IN THE WORLD REGARDLESS OF WHAT YOU THINK!! Blogging is for YOU not for anyone else. Oh yeah. I forgot. You are in it to "please people". Fat ugly people generally try to please others as a way to make themselves feel self-important I guess.

Soon...

Don't know if I've told you this, but I am on a project at work. Because of this, there is a blackout period where I am unable to take any vacation (pretty sure I can't even take a DAY). This period is from August through October. Basically, I have July, then November/December to take vacation. Yeah, ok. I have a couple of days in November already scheduled, plus New Year's week. Still have too many days to take so I don't lose them. Well, I've decided on a couple of days in July. Already warned my wife she may not see me at all those days. I am hoping to get in the car and just drive. ANYWHERE! Lord knows I need this time away!

Well...

I have never put this in my blog before, but even after this length of time I'm still affected by it. Earlier I decided to lay down for a nap. I tend to do this on weekends. I had a dream, and Dottie was in it. This is strange in and of itself, as while I think of her often (more often than I care to mention) she has rarely appeared in my dreams. This time, unlike any of the others, I could FEEL her. I felt her holding me, her head on my shoulder, her arms around me when she hugged me. It didn't feel like I was sleeping; it felt like I was somewhere else totally. I can even remember some of the details of the dream. We were in a home that I have (supposedly) never been in before, and Ann was there too. They actually talked a little bit (and nicely at that). Then we were in a bathroom, and Dot was giving me a gift she brought. I was laughing because what she brought me was made by Gillette, and the funny part was it was where I worked, so she brought me stuff I got for free under normal circumstances.

Sometimes, my dreams are desires that I wish would happen in reality but don't, so this is my way of "fulfilling a fantasy" for lack of a better term. However, there have been times it's a prequel of things to come. This has happened before. However, vivid memories and feelings from a dream have never lasted this long. I hope this passes soon.

Another week down...

And what a friggin' week it's been. Busy at work like you couldn't believe, plus did Habitat for Humanity yesterday morning. Too many things were pissing me off though. For starters, I have been doing my job for over 3 years, and that is NOT including the year I spent with the company as a temp. Why is it that I know so many other peoples' jobs, and they act as if they THINK they know mine? The bottom line was today. I had to do a bypass on an order, and after ALL was done, asked if I had approval. I said "Nope, I was bored and needed something to do". Then told them of course, that I've been doing my job long enough and know not to do something like that without prior authorization. I don't know if I'm burned out or what. Everything has been getting to me much worse than it should. Maybe it's time for a change. A complete change.

Friday Fling...

Took "summer hours" today. Ann will be home shortly for her break, and after she leaves I am not sure what I'm going to do first. May nap, may watch a movie or 6. Anything is better than work.

Still with me?

Why?!? I've honestly yet to figure out why anyone is reading this! It's not for anyone but me. I use this as a way to remember things, because I know in the not too distant future something is going to happen that is going to cause me to forget much of my life. This is the reason I have been "documenting" things. Reality plus memories that I DO remember.

I was actually remembering some of the times from my teen years. I remember the various girls I "dated" or thought I "liked". I also remember a couple of the girls that I really DID like, and how I wound up hurting them, and myself as well. I don't remember her name as well as I think, but I think her name was Nora. She was an inch or two shorter than me at the time, red hair, and heavy. I have a memory of talking to my mom in the kitchen, saying I liked her, but if I asked her out, all my friends would make fun of me because of how big she was. She overheard us and walked away crying. I lost not just a potential girlfriend, but a friend for sure that day.

I remember being out shopping for shoes or something with my mom. I noticed a girl standing in the store by herself, and she was rather attractive. I was shy back then, not really knowing how to approach her, when her friend came up to her. I don't know what their conversation was about, but I remember that girl saying how she will never have a real boyfriend because of how she talked. She had the voice that you would associate with a deaf (or hard of hearing) person. At that moment, I had two thoughts. (1) I couldn't go and talk to her because she would think I was taking pity on her -and- (2) I felt like a jackass for not going over and talking to her, because I understood how she felt. Being an "outsider" is not easy. It took me a number of years to figure out what I should have gone up to her and said. NO, I am not sharing that with you. It's personal, and something I'll never forget. This I am very sure of.

Work has been hell, trying to do things around the house has kept me busy. Yet, I'm still able to find time for me, to type this up for me to remember and for you to read, although I am STILL not sure why. I guess it doesn't matter. If you are entertained, that's your problem. I turned off the comments to this blog a long time ago, because frankly I don't care what any of you think.

Well, now I've been sitting here about 5 minutes and typed nothing. Sorry, not sure if it's A-D-D or W-G-A-S (who gives a shit!) but hey, it saved.

Friday...

Well, made it through the 5 nights without air conditioning! AC people came out yesterday, and after trying to tell me I needed a new unit, filled it with freon and I have air in my house again!

Went to Joplin Wednesday to volunteer some time to help victims of the F5 tornado that ripped the town apart a few weeks back. On the way out, went through the actual damaged path. Two words describe what went through my head. Holy Shit! Nothing left. Pure devastation. Going to go back a couple of more times this summer, bring Anthony with me. Want him to get to help too.

Other than that, nothing going on. Planning on taking a poker break, not playing my best and my luck has been running thin. TTFN!

Missing my dad...

Surprisingly today, I haven't thought about him as much as I thought I would. It was 23 years ago today that he was taken from us. As much as he did wrong in life, he was still my inspiration. I love you Dad. Wish you were here.

In other news, the air conditioning in my home is not working. For some reason, we turned it on yesterday and set it at 80 degrees. It kicked on at 82 and was still going when the house was reading 91. The unit works, I just hope it needs maintenance. I am going to call someone tomorrow, and see when I will be able to be home for them to come check out the unit.

Wednesday I will be going to Joplin with my company to help in the cleanup after the massive F5 tornado ripped the town apart a few weeks back. I am glad I can do something to help, especially since I was not able to give blood because of markings on my arms.

OK, too hot to type more...